And to be able to be in your presence without any blemish, without fault, and blame. Without curses, or shame. Without condemnation or pain. Being with you will be best of all days. For eternity with my king, glorifying him forever in His name- for all my days to come. Time won’t race, I won’t have to crave anything but you. My heart will yearn for your love each day, not lacking anything because I’ll be so close. Our hearts will be in sync; I won’t have to repent- For my soul and heart will be pure. With each breath I will breathe in you. Your presence will fill my soul. Your radiant light and goodness will make my soul smile. When that day comes: I’ll get to dance with you, hold you, and talk to face to face- And not to talk about all the problems I went through on earth, but instead the old will pass away and the new has come. Like in revelations: he will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away. The only thing we will talk about is your glory. The only thing that will be on my lips is your words. The presence of your love with be non stop- just an overflow of your presence. It must feel like flying. Just being around that much goodness, truth, and love. I could only imagine. To love Gods law all the time. To obey it all the time. To think about loving him all the time. Talking about it- helps me to taste it. It’s like food for my soul to ponder about your glory and dwelling place. To be able to love everyone without judging, hating, or being jealous. Doesn’t it sound like heaven? Or just 1% percent of it since I could never adequately describe how it will be. I know that this is what I like to imagine based on what I see about you. However, I was reminded that you said that we can have a piece of heaven right now. I gasped when I heard this. I can have a peace of heaven right now? I heard it in my first bible study- John 1:4- it hit me NOT like a pile of bricks but like a beautiful midst of water on a hot summery day. And more so it was medicine to my wounds. Stung like rubbing alcohol, but could feel the infection of my broken heart fade away with every word. In him was life and that life was the light of men. My heart pumped and I realized I needed you. You were everything my heart wanted and needed. You were life. You were joy. You were love. You were honesty. You were truth. You were hope. You were faithful. You were riches. You were peace. You were comfort. You were my dad, my king, my prince, and my father. I heard your kingdom come again in John 4:14- but whoever drinks the water I give them will never thirst. Indeed, the water I give will become in them a spring of water welling up to eternal life. I was just like that Samaritan women so thirsty. Thirsty for everyone and everything. Yet, Jacob’s well – men- only brought me more thirst. I was never quenched. Never satisfied. But each drink only brought more and more disappointment- Developing a strange distorted image of what it was to love and to be loved. I was thirsty. I was so thirsty. But the water you gave set my soul free. You quenched my thirst. To have springs of living water flow from within me was everything I wanted and everything you will give me when I drink from your well- your words. Lord, let me go back to this. To be satisfied all the time with just you. That’s what I want. Your words gave me a new life. You made a dead person alive. You made this blind girl see. You made this woman who was deaf for years give ears to hear. Blessed be your name. Let your words and commands be written in my heart, to where I can only hear you speak and to obey it with willingness. And I’ll wait. I’ll wait for that day to have a brand new body. Until then Holy Spirit allow my heart to hear your voice throughout the day. Where your voice is louder than anything else in the world. Let my delight be truly found in you. God capture my heart with your love. That each day I would think about you and chase after you with all my heart and strength.
To the King that has my heart: May thankfulness and obedience flow from my heart daily as I learn and understand your character, especially your love and holiness.
-Your beloved bride Ashley!
PS. I can’t wait to see you face to face in your kingdom- my true home!!
Written by: Ashley Austrie-Brown
Inspired by: Jesus Christ, P4CM, Joseph Solomon, Jackie Perry, and Canden Webb
