Waiting on the Lord

Looking back at your life you know God is so faithful. You can think of countless moments of things God has personally done for you. But the one thing that might of been hard was the wait. You know God is faithful, but the wait is so hard sometimes. You know that God's plan for your life will be good and it will glorify his name! So nothing to worry about really, but the wait or the time. 

I think of certain people in the bible who waited on the Lord. They waited for a promise, a very specific promise. The Most famous of them all is Abraham: "I will multiply your offspring as the stars of heaven and will give to your offspring all these lands. And in your offspring all the nations of the earth shall be blessed." And this promise had a purpose- it was leading to something or rather someone, Jesus! The one who would be stricken so that we could be saved!

Soooo I am waiting on the Lord, but I want it to lead to knowing and loving Jesus more. And ultimately I want it to glorify God. I have an “idea” of the things I want, but I know that what God has planned will be far greater than I could eve imagine. Lord, your will be done!

Here are some verses that have encouraged me to continue to wait on the Lord. I hope they bless and encourage you! Grace and Peace!

Psalm 25:3- "Indeed, none of those who wait for You will be ashamed"

Isaiah 40:31- "but they who wait for the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint."

Romans 10:11- "For the Scripture says, 'Everyone who believes in him will not be put to shame.'"

Romans 8:28- "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, whoⁱ have been called according to his purpose"

Confessions of a sinner made saint by the precious blood of the Lamb!

Beauty. I used to live for this. I really thought it was everything. I mean I would've never said such a thing to anyone, not even my closest friends. But the reality is 4 years ago I lived as if beauty was everything. And let me tell you. I thought I had it. I had a dancer body, curly natural hair, straight teeth, and high yellow skin. Lol Yet, at the end of the day my beauty failed me. It did not give me or allow me to keep the things I desired. Not a man, nor status, nothing.

But that was 4-5 years ago. It is now 2017, but I have learned so much about my life, about myself, about my neighbors, and mostly importantly I've learned so much about God- The Trinity God (The only God). And suprisingly, now that I'm a new creation in Christ-- I say with confidence to those reading this- Whether in Christ or not in Christ outside beauty means absolutely nothing. I know I needed this reminder too. (You might be saying if your a christian, "of course it doesn't," but oh how we humans forget!)

Anyways..beauty in itself will not sustain you or give you anything. Especially outward beauty for it is only temporary and will fade away! However, there is someone--only one person whose beauty is so amazing that He makes the dead come back to life. I know right, amazing! Christ Jesus and His finished work on the cross is full of Beauty. His beautifully perfect sinless life, death on the cross, and resurrection gives you: life (eternal life), hope, peace, joy, self control, patience, kindness, Etc. The list goes on. It's a completely changed life! And the best part about it is when you believe in this his Spirit is poured into you (Note: the fruits of the spirits mentioned above), making you sealed for the eternal glory that awaits after your body perishes (or when Jesus comes back- who knows you might be alive during this time lol).

I encourage you to seek after Christ and allow the beauty of the gospel to captivate your mind.

Today Lord, I confess that I want to see the beauty of the gospel (not my own beauty that is so often used for selfish gain) so that I can be transformed into the person you want me to be which brings glory to you/reveals your beauty! In Jesus name Amen! 

Foolishness

Do you know the definition of foolishness?  Well, according to Google it means: lack of good sense or judgment; stupidity. And look Google even gives us an example sentence: "she was realizing the foolishness of her actions." Now, who can admit to such a thing? I can! Oh I can! If I can describe my actions this past month I would say-- Foolishness. I want you to know the definition of the word Foolishness used in the bible: 

móros: dull, stupid, foolish

Original Word: μωρός, ά, όν
Part of Speech: Adjective
Transliteration: móros
Phonetic Spelling: (mo-ros')
Short Definition: stupid, foolish
Definition: (a) adj: stupid, foolish, (b) noun: a fool.

HELPS Word-studies

3474 mōrós (the root of the English terms, "moron, moronic") – properly, dull (insipid), flat ("without an edge"); (figuratively) "mentally inert"; dull in understanding; nonsensical ("moronic"), lacking a grip on reality (acting as though "brainless").

[This root (mōr-) "properly refers to physical nerves causing one to become dull, sluggish (so Hipp., Aristotle); used of the mind, dull, stupid, foolish" (Abbott-Smith); "flat/insipid" (WS, 1062). 3474 (mōrós) is used ironically of apparent stupidity in 1 Cor 1;25,27, 3:18.]

I know.. I know... i'm a fool! I am indeed a foolish women! The one who gazes on those things that are temporary. The one who sees danger and instead of running the opposite direction saying, "Well maybe I can help Lord. Let me take it from here." I liken my foolishness to Adam really. The first Adam. I have heard many people say I wouldn't have eaten from the tree, but when I look at the choices I've made (especially this month) I can say I would've eaten from that tree. I would've disobeyed God just like Adam. The reality of that makes me cry bitterly just like Peter did when he denied being a follower of Jesus three times. Oh I am no better than these men or women who have lived before me. Just another foolish women.  For I do not understand my actions. Paul writes in Romans 7. For I do not do what I want, but I do the very thing I hate.16Now if I do what I do not want, I agree with the law, that it is good. 17So now it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells within me. 18For I know that nothing good dwells in me, that is, in my flesh. For I have the desire to do what is right, but not the ability to carry it out. 19For I do not do the good I want, but the evil I do not want is what I keep on doing. 20Now if I do what I do not want, it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells within me. 21So I find it to be a law that when I want to do right, evil lies close at hand. 22For I delight in the law of God, in my inner being, 23but I see in my members another law waging war against the law of my mind and making me captive to the law of sin that dwells in my members. 24Wretched man that I am! Who will deliver me from this body of death? 25Thanks be to God through Jesus Christ our Lord! 

Lord, help me. Help me to have patience and to know that you are sovereign over every detail in my life, which ultimately is for your glory. Also, Lord continue to renew my mind. I need your wisdom, your counsel, and your Love! In Jesus Name - Amen! 

You Take it, and allow your will to be done in my life!

That moment you realize the Holy Spirit tried to tell you something about a situation and you just ignored it. You convinced yourself that it wasn't bad and tried to make excuses for it or just simply tried justifying your actions. Then the very thing you knew that was going to happen happens and you know there is no one to blame but yourself. It doesn't matter if others were in the wrong or not, BUT you knew you could have made a different choice but you didn't. You tried to hold onto something you knew would never be anything at all.

There is a strange pain of knowing that you have so long to go before you ever get this something you desire. In a sense, you failed, your wrong choice shows you are not ready to have what even God desires for you.

The you decide that giving what you desire to God is best, and say Lord "You take it, and allow your will be done in my life." Yet, there is this slight temptation to look at what you gave God and desire it back AND  a deep pains comes from that. Why? It's a pain that comes from your selfishness and your unwillingness to let go. Only you're causing it! Instead of trusting God you still hold onto what you want.

Oh temptation! You desire for me to rebel against my God. To call him a liar, unfaithful and unloving. But you're wrong. Oh my God loves me... he has revealed it through his Son, Jesus Christ! He has lavished his love on me by sending His Son to die on a cross to pardon my sin.

This all reminds me of Beautiful Eulogy's song, "Release me from this snare"

Release Me From The Snare Lyrics

[Verse 1: Braille]
I acknowledge my sin to You and I did not cover my iniquity
Theres nowhere to hide from Your all seeing eyes
You know everything I can't tell you a lie
You know my own own heart much better than I
You know when I sleep and You know when I rise
You know all the thoughts that go through my mind
From morning to night every moment of pride
I acknowledge my sin to You and I did not cover my iniquity
You know what I've done. You know what I do
So I open my mouth and confess it to You
And You're making me new with your spirit at work
To convict me in sin so I know where to turn
And I know where to run, run to your arms
To be cleansed of my sin by the blood of Your son
Hey! I acknowledge my sin I know I can't kill it with a knife or a gun
It must be crucified on the cross with your son
Then I can know it is finished and done
Then I can know that I'm truly forgiven
And get to the business of living for You
And its not for my glory but its only for You
And its speaks of your mercy your loving Your truth
Give me the faith to believe what You say
And trust in Your word when I'm tempted to stray
And to patiently wait for the day You return
I hate my sin it burns!

[Hook: Braille]
The old will pass away, while I'm still here You hear my prayer
Please, wash my sins away, oh Lord release me from this snare
The old will pass away, while I'm still here You hear my prayer
Please, wash my sins away, oh Lord release me from this snare

***Note: One of the saddest moments in my life. I look to God to restore this brokenness at the wedding feast.

So what aspect of God’s obedience am I thankful for? Philippians 2:6-8

6“Who, being in very nature^a God, did not consider equality with God something to be used to his own advantage; 7rather, he made himself nothing by taking the very nature^b of a servant, being made in human likeness. 8And being found in appearance as a man, he humbled himself by becoming obedient to death— even death on a cross!” 

God is nothing like me. He is perfect. I can really trust him. Even with the hurt that I have endured or even when I’m confused about something. If I can just look at him and see his humility and love- His love that has no boundaries- & his humility that says, “NOT even my thrown kept me from coming to save you personally and bringing YOU close to me” than I can trust him and be thankful for what he has ALREADY done in my life. His very nature is love. His obedience was done in love. 

So what aspect of God’s obedience am I thankful for? It would be Christ Humility and unfailing steadfast love to come in a human body and die on a cross for ME so that I could be adopted as a child of God!!! I’m a women who is soooooooo undeserving of this right, but God has clothed me with his righteousness has changed, is changing and will change my heart in its entirety.  

New Poems - New season

The Lamb of God, who takes away the sin of the world! 

Humble you are. Coming down from your throne to pardon me. Dying a death you did not deserve. My rightful place, I did deserve. This wretched sinner that I am. Nonetheless, you came, conquered sin and death making me alive. While also granting me eternal life. This gift of God who could deny? Oh not me, oh not I. For is it only by grace through faith I have been saved. Any other way is considered vain.

By: AAB

A Relentless Love 

You're more colorful than rainbows. More brighter than stars. You're stronger than kings, bigger than knights. Your Love towers over, it covers the deepest sin. Oh Lord, you are the reason for the righteousness of men!! Come let me lay in the bosom of your love so that I may not forget the height, the depth of it ~ and receive your sweet forgiveness.

By: AAB

Let this song ring in your ear today!

GREAT ARE YOU LORD


Written by: Jason Ingram, Leslie Jordan, David Leonard (AKA All Sons & Daughters)

You give life, You are love
You bring light to the darkness
You give hope, You restore
Every heart that is broken
Great are You, Lord

It's Your breath in our lungs
So we pour out our praise
We pour out our praise
It's Your breath in our lungs
So we pour out our praise to You only

You give life, You are love
You bring light to the darkness
You give hope, You restore
Every heart that is broken
Great are You, Lord

All the earth will shout Your praise
Our hearts will cry, these bones will sing
Great are You, Lord

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nGS4tXvCGvU